Day 13 - ‘unsure, you’ll regret not doing it more!’ 💫
A good nights sleep in the bivvy and another lazy morning getting ready to go, I’m just so tired at the mo and looking forward to my second wind kicking in!! 💨💨
I love writing my blog and tonight rather then do it whilst snuggled up in my bivvy I’ve decided to stop for a sneaky drink, listening to the sea lapping on the beach in front of my whilst tapping away these words.
This morning I encouraged myself off the campsite I was on, tricky as it was bliss and the fellow campers where lovely.
It was already a beautiful warm and sunny day, a relaxed day reading my book appealed more then cycling but I need to ride through this more challenging patch. 🚴🏼♀️
Soooooo sunny the legs are out ☀️🙃
So before I write the next bit, to be clear, at this point in my life there is nowhere else I’d rather be. I’m super grateful my RA is managed through lifestyle and that I can ride a bike and I’ve started exploring the world. I am well aware I’ve chosen this route out of unexpected life waters. So yes I am living my dreams but as with most of life, even the positives come at a cost.
(sorry bloke friends, girly stuff coming!)
Cycling has been hard going the last 3 days, my ladies region does not like this constant saddle action!!! (Guys surely you have manly issues form riding, like your sausages and veg must get very mashed!!) As a result I’m constantly uncomfortable. This combined with the heat and lazy bones are meaning I'm mentally pushing myself to keep riding, even if only limited miles. 18.5 today.
Also today the tiredness was making me feel more emotionally sensitive.
Last night I had such a lovely time joining the family for dinner and I love that being a solo traveller opens up these opportunities for me. On the flip side they also reminds me that I’ve choose a life of not having my own kids. I’m lucky I have amazing kids in my life through friends and family, but when I watch the families on the beaches I’m also very aware of what I don’t have. I wouldn’t change it, I like the freedom I have, it’s just I except this comes at a cost.
Funny it was a mummy sheep with her lamb today that was my tipping point. Just so adorably loving and cute. ☺️
I also accept that for the foreseeable future I’m travelling solo. I know a lot of people see me as a strong and brave person, I get told this a lot. The thing is i just challenge myself as I know through doing this it will grow my self trust and confidence, which will enable me to be myself and live the life I want regardless of if it’s a solo life or not. That said I’m still vulnerable and miss loving and being loved by someone. Today I sat in a field and had a few tears, I see that as a positive, allowing the emotions to come up and let them go.
Today a hug was needed!
Anyhow's enough of the emosh and back to the coast and the area I'm in at moment has lots of beautiful coves.☺️
The sea was so still and inviting I decided to go brave the waters and have my first swim.
It made me giggle, no one was swimming but there was lots of kayaks, I walked down and a guy was saying it was too cold to go above the knees. So in i go and he’s right it’s super cold, I get to my waist and I’m standing there thinking I don’t need to swim...........
The thing is though I know I love the thrill and exhilaration I get from sea swimming and so it kicks in.....
My mantra for times like this when I need some encouragement...
‘unsure, you’ll regret not doing it more’
5 chants of this and I’m in, the cold completely takes my breath away, but I love it. It’s such a beautiful place and I am a mermaid! 🧜🏼♀️ 🤣
After I spend a good while chilling on the beach, soaking up to scenery and watching the many people enjoying the day. Bliss 🙏🏻
So flash forward......
I’m at the campsite but not without a universal moment happening when leaving the pub, I got chatting to Anna and Alex as they were asking about Firefly. We chatted away a while and then randomly, today, on the day I was contemplating long term solo life, Alex then reassuring says he’s divorced and now very happy with Anna. This warmed my heart, as a couple they seemed full of life and I’d been listening to them laughing, happy and relaxed in each other’s company, whilst writing this blog. As Anna wisely said first comes self love and then love follows.....
Wow wow wow!!!! 🤩🤩🤩
Unbelievable as I’m sat writing about Anna and Alex when they arrive at the campsite!!!! They kindly invited me to share there bottle of bubbly. Now my first impressions of Anna and Alex are they are awesome people and on a similar humour wavelength but I had a moment of self doubt. I was thinking what if they don’t enjoy my company, then again ’unsure, you’ll regret not doing it more’ kicked in and I’m so happy it did as I’ve just had such a fun evening with them both. A very entertaining fire making session and then constant giggles. I certainly hope our paths will cross again. It’s just simply been the best end to the day and I do feel a message from the universe that love wise the best is to come and that for now I’m in the perfect place and time to find myself in life first.
Once again nature and awesome people have made for another super memorable day. 🥰🌈💫🙏🏻☺️
Keep dreaming 😴💭